Lots running through my head today. God has really been getting my attention lately. I feel Him drawing me closer to Him, and asking me to go deeper in my relationship with Him. This is kinda scary, but I know it is good. I have cried out to Him for forgiveness of my passiveness, ungratefulness, and selfishness. These sins grab a hold of me daily, and I pray for the grace to overcome. I really feel God wrapping His arms around me, and letting me feel His warmth. I really need the warmth right now.
I have been thinking a lot lately about being proactive. In the sermon I heard on Sunday, the preacher quoted this saying that he used to say with people in a recovery program, "Nothing changes, if nothing changes." I often find myself questioning if God is ever gonna change Daniel and I's circumstances, and I have been thinking lately that God is probably more than willing to change our circumstances if I am willing to take the steps and trust Him. So I am planning to make some changes so that I (only with God's help) can change my circumstances.
Today, I go to take a placement test at Rose State College. I have not taken classes since dropping out of the University of Oklahoma half way through my first semester of my freshmen year. I would be lying if I didn't say that as I move forward fear does not grip me. I have never been the greatest of students, and failure is not something that I deal with well. I need prayer. I need to succeed for lots of reasons. I need it just because I need to feel that success is something that I can attain. I need it to ensure a better future for my family. I need it, because I believe it is what God is calling me to do, and my goal in this life is to be obedient and bring glory to Him.
If you get a chance, please pray for me. Pray for me as I take this test. Pray for my selection of courses. Pray for my determination not to waiver, and for focus. Just pray for me how God might lead you.
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God thank you for your daughter. Thank you that you already know the plans that you have for her and her family. Thank you that you care more about their circumstances than they do. I pray that as they wait on you that you would give them steadfastness. Teach them to hold fast to you and your word. Show her how you see her. Show her that the ultimate success is having a love relationship with you. As she moves on to schooling I ask that you would give her favor in it. I pray that she would sense ease and peace in the process. I pray that you would help her to keep you in the center of it so that she will not grow weary. I pray Proverbs 3:5-6 over her Lord. Let her lean on your understanding alone. Let her give you the glory in all things. We know that you will make her path straight. THank you that she is a woman after your own heart. Lord help us women to come together and sojourn with you with one another. Let us hold each other up. Let us love the way you would. Protect her marriage. Bind their family together with ties that cannot be broken, with solidity that cannot be shaken.
ReplyDeleteAMEN.